My blog, my turn to whinge.

Kit's being whiny today, but kind of justifiably so. I slept 3 hours (poorly) last night, have been nauseous and achy all day, worried about dad since noon (his prostate removal is happening right now) and mom called to say that my grandmother (her mom) hasn't eaten for 2 days and has been totally unresponsive to the nurses at her home for 24 hours. So, family drama llama time all over the fucking place, and I can't do anything about any of it except be supportive over the phone (mom) and FB chat (my sisters). Mom doesn't want anyone to come over. One sis busy with neice. Other is probably still at work and doesn't even know what's what.

Poor Phae doesn't know what to do to help - not that it's a help-able situation, really. The women in my family are stoic to a fault and fall apart when it's feasible to do so. Yeah I'm a little weepy but mostly just frustrated. I want to fix it, to make it all better. We all do. None of us can. And that sucks, tremendously.

Useless organs which cause pain

5 days from today, I'm having my gallbladder removed. It's been causing me pretty nasty pain since June; I was fortunate to get a surgical referral and a quick surgery date. Sometimes these things can be left for a year or more - ugh!

Today I'm going in for the 'presurgery' appointment - blood work and some other odds and ends of medical prep/info, I suppose. Mainly I get to find out exactly where the hospital is, because I'm having the surgery in Arnprior, rather than here in Ottawa. I feel very comforted by this. I feel a smaller hospital generally provides better patient care (the ER at Winchester, for instance, there is NO waiting time and the nurses actually take the time to treat you like a person. A scared person in pain. They're awesome).

I've heard all manner of anecdotes about this particular surgery. Some people have had a breeze, no complications, up and around in 2-3 days. Others have had loose stones floating around which cause all kinds of secondary issues. Still others have had infection, extreme pain post-procedure, and more. I figure everyone is different with these things, and going in with a positive attitude and high motivation to recover quickly (but safely) is my best bet. It also helps that I have great confidence in my surgeon, who has performed over 4,000 of these procedures!

Housekeeping

In the real and the virtual sense, I'm doing housekeeping today. There is a mountain of laundry to be put away, and here on the KnitSpot I'm figuring out what I want to link to, list, etc. So things are a bit scatterdash at the moment.

The Zombie post: Blog Back from the Dead

I realized this morning that I used to blog here ALL THE TIME. It was intended first to be about my knitting, and then branched out into a general "life, the universe, and everything", and then... well, I basically stopped. Things got busy, or maybe I just didn't have much to say. I think spending a lot of time on Facebook and Twitter may have had something to do with it. Really, how many places do I need to share my silly thoughts, odd events, and general ephemera?

But I miss being able to muse, and rant, and generally spew my verbosity. It's for me - if others read or not, it's not really important. The insecurity of needing to be validated by comments or whatnot has passed.

So - for me, I am back to the Blog. There will be knitting, and writing, and general silliness. There will be family, and friends, and work, and all the things that make up my life that I am willing to put "out there". Ravelry is not my blog. This is.